There he Goes

There he goes

From their debut stage, she has been interested in them. They looked dashing in that suit while playing their respective instruments. It is an open knowledge that she really likes hard working men and she sees it in them, a particular idol group. She considered herself their fan, a huge fan at that.

And then came an announcement from their maknae @ dawn that one February day. She was fast asleep when she felt Seohyun carefully went inside their room. Their ever so considerate maknae, didn’t even turn on the lights as she enter, she heard her stumble into something. She turned to her bedside table and turned on the lamp, she sat on her bed while her eyes adjusted for the light and gave their now shocked and embarrassed maknae a smile “You could’ve just turned it on” she said in a husky voice fresh from sleep “I’ll go pee” she stood and went to their bathroom, she knew she would feel sorry that she woke her up, so she might as well give a reason for it, to lessen her burden

“Mianhe unnie.” She said softly as soon as she went out of the bathroom.

“Ani, I really wanted to pee, so I woke up” she gave her a smile “So who was it? Who’s your nampyeon?” she asked in a teasing voice

She sighed still a little burdened of the sudden marriage “CN-Blue’s leader Jung Yonghwa” she answered while changing

“Chungmal? I really like them” she said a little excited “so how was it?”

“I know, that’s why I thought you would be glad that he is the one that I’m married to.” She suppressed a yawn “He really is hardworking, you know me, I’m really awkward when it comes to boys but he worked hard, for me to get comfortable with him” she smiled at the thought, grateful for what he did earlier

“That’s really good. And you’ll be meeting each other later.” She teased

“Yeah, we promised to show off our ring on our number” she said shyly

She nodded, a smile on her face as she lay down on her own bed. “That’s good! We’ll talk about it in the morning. Go wash up and rest.” She covered herself with blanket, glad for their maknae

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They formally met that one rainy day on April for their house warming party. She was really glad to have met them, him and Jungshin, she confirmed her thoughts about them being hardworking.

She studied their maknae closely that day around her husband. There is something different about her, although she or they are quiet envious, they liked it. She’s young, she should experience young love.

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It was an early morning in May when they called her for their driver’s license exam preparation. Without knowing, she hovered her closet in choosing her clothes for that day, she put on make-up and don her hair. She wanted to look pretty that day. And when he complemented her the moment she stepped inside their house, she blushed and said “I did make-up a bit more than I would normally”.

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Jungshin has become friendlier with her while they were waiting for the couple to come out of the testing area. They saw them walk out and asked about the result. In the attempt to congratulate them, they prepared a small picnic party but it turned out to be a consolation party.

They were having fun in the park as she encouraged Seohyun to use banmal to him. And what got her stupid heart was when he tried very hard to learn their dance, it was not shown on broadcast but he really practiced an ample amount of time for him to dance that way.

It was the day that she admitted to herself that she likes the guy not for their maknae but for her. She sighed at the thought. She would endure her one-sided love this time, without the other members knowing.

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In strong heart she admitted that she has a one-sided love on a member of an idol group, although her fellow members were shocked, they did a great job covering it. After the show, she was surrounded by 8 curious and eager eyes. Without saying a thing she knew what they want to know, she smiled at them feigning innocence but they did not buy it.

She sighed, her mind wander to make up a good excuse but as expected, they did not allow her to change the subject. And it hit her, the most decent and believable cover, without thinking much he mouth stated a name “Lee Jungshin, CN-Blue’s bassist” she faked a smile and looked at Seohyun who gave her a bright smile in return. The other members squealed, she heard someone say CN-Blue has so much charm coz they owned two SNSDs. She smiled sadly “Yeah that person has an unbelievable charm coz he have two SNSD.” She caught Seohyun studying her, she faked a laugh and joined their happy conversation

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After a few months of getting married, she noticed Seohyun always fiddling her phone, as if waiting for it to ring. And when it does, her face would lit up in excitement, and fall back into disappointment if the caller was not the one she expected. It would have been enjoyable for her to watch if only she is having those reactions for another guy.

Somehow, she knew they like each other, but her remaining hopes were shattered the moment Seohyun got back from the taping of their birthday episode. That light that shines in her eyes are blinding her, although late at night she started to rap about how her day was in excitement, gone were the days where she can sleep soundly because Seohyun was reading a book, now she is talking about a boy non-stop. She is glowing, the glow a woman in love and loved in return can only have.

When the birthday episode aired they watched enviously, she can freely express it with the others since they were feeling the same. One thing she needs to hide is the hurt that she feels every sweet moment they have together.

As both of them walked in the night with fingers intertwined with each other, and with the chaos it brought in the MC and all her members, she hurriedly wipe the single tear that escaped from her eye

“There he goes.” She sighed, swallowed the lump on her throat and fakes a squeal to join the others

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She tried hard to let go and now she has accepted the fact that the Goguma couple is real, she knows it all. But it is hard to forget, so as the recent interview, when she was asked if her feelings about that person she talked about in May is the same she nodded. “If there is someone who likes me, I really like hardworking people, so you have to work hard in order to succeed” she joked